Big, it doesn't have to be the end of the world.

But I am too big. I am 271 lbs. That is very close to the biggest I have ever been in my whole life. That is icky. But also this doesn't feel like the end of the world or something I have to be in crisis about. It just feels like something that needs to be addressed.

It should be noted that I am doing waaaaay less compulsive eating and other icky things then I have ever done in the last 20 odd years. So yes, there were ass expanding consequesnces. But those are the breaks.

I have created menu's for the next several days. I am gonna do atkins cause I know it is a diet I can do.

And I am gonna look for a diet app today. I love me some data.

It should also be noted that when I was this large in the past I felt way worse about myself then I do now. I am more attractive, smarter and good, good, good. That fact exists at the same time as that wicked dress size (22/24)

3 eggs with cheese
1 cup of tea w/cream
1 cup lettuce
4 oz chicken

4 cheese sticks
burger patty
1 cup lettuce
6 oz steak
2 oz b. cheese
3 tbl almond
1tsp choco
and cream