MUST DO THIS WEEKEND

Okay this list is so you don't forget to take care of things that are important or will cost you money

1. Find Receipt for Glasses and send in paperwork to wage works
2. Get form signed for $130.00 for Child Care pay me back
3. Find old copies of IEP's
4. Find old copies of report cards
5. Do Bawdy website
6. Do Mock up of mural website - and or content request
7. Do photo prep for CE
8. Do Laundry 

Sometimes

Even the best people suck

weird and tried

Hello world I feel tired and weird. and tired. Did I say that.

One cup of coffee
ham and cheese b fast thingy but most of it made me sick and it didn't stick with me

Shark mode

I am in what I call "shark" mode... keep moving, keep working, keep going or I'll just never get going again. I'll just die.

2 huge cups of coffee
1 20oz water
burrito bowl, no sour cream

Lists because I just loves me some to do lists

Simplicity Coat 3672


Fabrics: Denim, Corduroy, Twill, Wool and Wool Blends, Wool Crepe, Wool and Wool Blend Coatings, Melton, Brocade, Shantung, Taffeta, Velvet. Extra fabric needed to match plaids, stripes or one-way design fabrics.

Notions: Thread, one pair of 1/2 in. shoulder pads. A: Three 1 1/8th in. buttons.

For the long coat
45in = 7 1/8 yards
60in = 5 3/8 yards
45in interfacing = 6 3/4 yard


For the dress length coat
45in = 6 3/8 yards
60in = 4 1/2 yards
45in interfacing = 3 5/8 yard

of the sweet and the bitter

So I am feeling up despite no sweeping windfalls of solutions or resources. Then again I am already rich by the people in my life so I don't want to get inured (sp) to the fact that I am very, very, very, lucky despite my very valid and stressful circumstances.

Now for what I mean by all that babble and the post title. This week a long time single friend confessed to his new smittened (sp) state right on the heals of the OK doing the same. And I want that for both of them. Yippee!. And my a pair of dear friends are celebrating their love by getting married this weekend. Again big ole yippee. So I am happy for and with them. And I want to add to the joy.

But in the back of my head and heart lingers this little dagger, this little splinter of loneliness. Most likely exacerbated by the fact I haven't had sex in oh, a million years.

Anyhow I feel better for writing it down. Kinda like lancing a boil. I am going to have a great day, a great weekend and I am going to let go of my expectations and just experience what the universe brings to me fer fuck's sake.

feeling sad and beaten up

the rent is more than a month behind

the phone and pg&e are a month and a half behind

I don't know where the groceries are coming from next week

I need new chonies badly

I might lose my job in a matter of weeks

I am screamingly lonely

my youngest kid skipping school and is lying and stealing

he really hurt his brothers feelings by stealing from him

He goes through my stuff

I have to put a lock on my bedroom door

this stucks

I am so tired