Friday, April 03, 2009

of the sweet and the bitter

So I am feeling up despite no sweeping windfalls of solutions or resources. Then again I am already rich by the people in my life so I don't want to get inured (sp) to the fact that I am very, very, very, lucky despite my very valid and stressful circumstances.

Now for what I mean by all that babble and the post title. This week a long time single friend confessed to his new smittened (sp) state right on the heals of the OK doing the same. And I want that for both of them. Yippee!. And my a pair of dear friends are celebrating their love by getting married this weekend. Again big ole yippee. So I am happy for and with them. And I want to add to the joy.

But in the back of my head and heart lingers this little dagger, this little splinter of loneliness. Most likely exacerbated by the fact I haven't had sex in oh, a million years.

Anyhow I feel better for writing it down. Kinda like lancing a boil. I am going to have a great day, a great weekend and I am going to let go of my expectations and just experience what the universe brings to me fer fuck's sake.

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