rollin' rollin' rollin'

Ode to smart men with beautiful eyes.

I need to write one, and ode that is, to smart men with beautiful eyes. I had lunch with one and he was just plain delightful. God what a smarty... I must remember the miracle that non fiction topics are. And the cute euro accent didn't hurt either.


So here I am back on the wagon so I will end this post with what I ate today.
B-fast was a home made protein shake
Lunch was about 1 6th of a Boudin salad mostly the protein parts and the nuts.
Dinner is gonna be leftover curry

Getting on the ball

Minimum list of to do's for art

1. Install hanging hardward on at least the four abstracts.
2. Back frame lemongrass
3. By Frame 11 x 14 for Nettles
4. Get wood block and hanging hardware for dia de las muerto's series (28 block, hardware for 7 pieces)
5. Back frame red and gold piece + hardware
6. Get hardware for at least 20 pieces 
7. Measure all existing work and make nameplates for them
8. Write up statement 
9. Figure out budget 

the moth approach

So it occurred to me that I could sometimes fall pray to the moth approach to amorous connections. Ya know where the shiny thing distracts me and captures all my attention. Then I just end up burning my self out on it. Eewwww. I would say that I was gonna do all this introspective work and find a new healthy strategic approach to it but let's be real here. I am going to have to depend on luck to see me through... cause I have to be genuine in my interests both with my self and others. Sometimes that means being a fly by night little tart. Sometimes that is gonna mean being brutally honest and taking a pass on things don't ring my bell. Phew that is all worked out.

So I had dates (minor ones - meet and greets) set up for tues, wed, and a date date for tonight. So far both Tuesday and Wednesday have flaked on me at the last min. I am hoping I can at least score one out of three for pete' sake. Please O' Universe I would like to spend some good times with someone who is a) attracted to me b) I am attracted to and c) is available

been kissin' loaners

So I have been kissin' loaners... other women's men. Not so say that I have been a low down dirty poachin' bitch cause I haven't. They had permission to play. Heck one wife or two were there at the time. But that being said the loaners thing is sort of weird. The women in question are really way more important to me than getting play and for that matter the friendships maintained with the men are super important too! It was all in good spirits to begin with. I think the mild awkwardness may just be rampant paranoia.

On another note I am meeting 2 new people this week and hanging out with several others. Whooo hoooo!

Linda Ronstadt Monday

This post was originally titled "body image and comfort zones" but that sounded like a therapy group or a self help book... so fuck that. I am youtubing my ass off and immersing myself in Linda's feminist rants and torch songs... and I am not even pining over anyone. In fact I had the best weekend ever! I got naked out side with in semi-public. I felt great about myself. And was taught by great people many a lesson on self acceptance.

One humbling realization was how much I look for validation from social mass before I act. And how uncomfortable I am doing my own thing with an audience.

There were many other realizations and not too few wonderful experiences. One of the things I am gonna do is let those experiences go unexamined. If I pick them apart they will lose their magic.