Starving

Slept like a fucking rock and now I am raveounous.

1 cup scrambled eggwhites
half cup tea
cup of coffe
cup of green tea
water
2 quiche squares... all before 11am.

Gonna ahve a salad for lunch
(baby greens, almonds, poppy dressing, chix, cheese)

Gonna work out and swim today - as soon as I get off bart

Gonna eat fish thiny, brussel spouts and sald for dinner.

Gonna make lunch before I go to bed - This means cookin up some salmon to go in it.

Self Realization

I have been stumped lately when it comes to making much needed cloths for myself. And for the longest time now I have been puzzled as to why. On the train this morning while sleeping through my stop I figured it out. I don't like my body right now. So to make cloths  right now wuold be the equivilent of shopping when I feel really REALLY blobby. Ewwww. Talk about self esteem bashing.

So I took that energy and made home-made pre-packaged food for myself this week. And I skipped the peanutbutter m&m's this morning. And I WILL GO TO THE GYM tonight after accupuncture. Even if it is for 15 fucking minutes.

The other thing is that I have to return to this  journaling business.

So far today I have had

half a bottle of water
half a cup of tea
one cup of coffee
about 2/3rds of a cup of scrambled egg whites
Med. Salad
1 square quiche
Leftover eggplant and green beans

Went to accupuncture
Biked to the Y
Got a new Y ID
Did 5 min hard on stair thingy
Dis 5 min med on bike
Did 100 reps on arms

on sucking

So I utterly sucked at getting anything done after work yesterday... I just feel so tired and my neck hurts like all get out. But the knee is better... slept in till 6:30.

And I REALLY REALLY REALLY want something sweet. With peanut butter and chocolate.

Time to get off my ass

So the YK has been off at school for almost 4 weeks now. I think it is time to get off my butt and work on me for a while... I am finding my personal state of disrepair getting in the way of having fun.

I have improved the apt.
I have improved my stock of things to take care of myself with. (hair, make-up).
I have also been eating crap.
I have also not gotten any exercise to speak of.



So here is my little list of to do things today...

1. Sort out Y membership
2. Make gym bag (knee brace, work cloths, make-up, work shoes, hair stuff, soap, lock)
   
3. Set alarm for 5:20 am
4. Go to bed at 9:30
5. Clean your room (put away shoes, make bed, dust, vacumm)
6. Work on Bawdy
7. Sort out laundry
8. Purge closet
9. Label boxes
   

Here is Wednesday's List

1. Go to movies with Nik
1. inglorious bastards, 7 cali
2. Dist. 9, 5:15,UA
2. Clean Bathroom
3. Make gym bag (knee brace, work cloths, make-up, work shoes, hair stuff, soap, lock)
   
4. Set alarm for 5:20 am
5. Go to bed at 9:30

Here is Thrusday's List

1. Make body double (pending finding a partner)
2. Vac House
   
3. Make gym bag (knee brace, work cloths, make-up, work shoes, hair stuff, soap, lock)
   
4. Set alarm for 5:20 am
5. Go to bed at 9:30

Today so far I have eaten
2 sm pkg of peanut butter m&m's
1 sm pkg of almonds
1 piece of quiche
1 big ass piece of coffee