rewards

pounds

180 = New boots from widewidths.com

http://www.widewidths.com/sidney.html
http://www.widewidths.com/molly1.html
http://www.widewidths.com/kiersten.html

240 = new hoodie

220 = new lingerie

245 = new trainers

200 = new underthings

160 = new coat

body numbers

waist 42'

bust 46'

hips 55'

thigh 32"

calf 18

calf height 15'

arm 18'

back = Neck to waist = 18'


EEEEEEk.

I still am not going to care

I am not hard to figure out. I just want to do the work and not spend time fussing over lame things.


More passive aggressive bitchiness. Some of which was me, but 'fer fucks sake when you can't get your shit together just cop to it. Don't try to shift your mess to someone else. And by someone else I mean me... cause quite frankly if some other fool wants to deal with your sloppy passive aggressive crap that is is there prerogative. Just don't assume I am ready to get into that queue.

On a separate note the perpetrator in question put there bitchiness in writing... for all so see. Dumbass.

the allure of cheese toast

I was unable to resist the allure of cheesy toast last night. I know sourdough bread is bad for me and a no-no. But I was so hungry and the brie was so perfectly squishy and it is so quick. I was like a recovering alchoholic in a booze shop who check out of the program way WAY to early. It was great though. And I didn't eat tons of it.

Oh, and I don't quite feel so negative and blue and psycho.... irrational. It most likely wasn't the toast. Other things have gone down including sleeping, but I am just sayin'.

Blue

I am feeling very blue today with a touch of angry. Isolated.

Hazzy is being a butthead, I am having strife at work with an insulting person, and I am terribly lonely.

All together iccky.

I need to lose more weight... then maybe my body would feel better. I don't quite know what to do about the mood though.

Food Poisoning and Other Fun Rides

Okay, so I had food poisoning so bad I ended up in the hospital Sunday night, well really very early monday am. Thanks mostly to a really great friend who got up at 4 am and took me in, god bless her.

Broke 250 - been weighing in at about 248 ish, but eating too much comfort food and will have to nip that in the bud. I did all this nice planning last weekend to have nice health low fat meals only to have such a tender stomach that all solid food is good. And I drank too much soda... all ginger ale, which is the only thing that made me feel the least good.

Now I need to get back on it! I am finding that if the kitchen is dirty in the morning that making b-fast doesn't happen. I need to find a better way to handle all the dishes. I need a housekeeper. *sigh*

I also need to better faithfully log my eats.

b-fast
Protien Shake - Odwalla Almond
.5 cup coffee

Still rockin' 253

Which mean consistent long term weightloss. I also still have that ringing headache. No fun at all.

b-fast
4 scrabbled eggwhites with a bit of butter
Total Carbs 1.5
Fiber 0.0
Net Carbs 1.4
Fat 0.3
Protein 21.8
Calories 104.0

lunch
Salad with Chicken
Total Carbs 27.9
Fiber 3.1
Net Carbs 24.8
Fat 27.3
Protein 52.5
Calories 571.5

Dinner is an "I don't know, at this point"