Feb. 22, 2007 - misery

This is just a job. And the end of the how important is it to me to keep it? [I really think I need to work on finding that answer.]

I can't spend day after day struggling to [fill in blank here. These things can include, do a good job, be effiecent, get job satisfaction, communicate effectively, not get yelled at by other people, get support, get respect, be creative, be accurate, be supportive.]

My sense of dread as I walk in to this building is just increasing and increasing. I need a fucking break. Just to be cut a little slack... it seems everyone is asking me to cut others slack were the fuck is my slack. No, I get told I do 90% of my job really well but I need I am hard to work with. WTF these two things seem utterly contridictory. And I am being asked to change how I communicate but I am not supported in doing so. When I went for support today all that happened was an escelation. What the F. I just need a bit of sucess. Please. Just a little relief.